Daily Life

應該不會有人看到吧這裡。那在這裡哭也沒關係。

I m just a pathetic wanna-be...

Whoever said that love is easy, must has never been in love;
Sometimes its a land mine, one wrong step and it blows up;
A word, a look, lights a hidden fuse.

It's hard to see just what you have, when you're seeing red;
And it's easy to do something that you know you both will regret;
Better stop, think, count to ten before I leave.

One, I still wanna hate you;
Two, three, I still wanna leave;
Four, searching for that door;
Five, then I look into your eyes;
Six, take a deep breathe;
Seven, take a step back;
Eight, nine, I don't know why, we even started this fight;
By the time I get to ten, I'm right back in your arms again.

Words thrown so carelessly like weapons when we fight;
But when they cut too deep, I wanna leave it all behind;
That I've to count to ten, before I cross that line.

One, I still wanna hate you;
Two, three, I still wanna leave;
Four, searching for that door;
Five, then I look into your eyes;
Six, take a deep breathe;
Seven, take a step back;
Eight, nine, I don't know why, we even started this fight;
By the time I get to ten, I'm right back in your arms again.

You can lose what you're not thankful for,
I don't want that to happen to you and me,
Better count my blessing.

One, you still move me;
Two, three, you send chills right through me;
Four, you keep me wanted more;
Five, when I look into your eye;
Six, you're my best friend;
Seven, that will never end;
Eight, nine, I don't know why, but thank God it happens every-time;
By the time I get to ten,
By the time I get to ten,
I can see how bless I've been.

I'll chose you all over again...

　　偶爾會覺得痛，是很痛很痛。奇怪怎麼自己忽然會這樣想。其實做的說的想的，通通都不一樣。也許人就是這樣表裡不一。
　　一想到自己從來不是，以後也不是，任何人心中的第一，就很痛，又無可奈何。我又做了什麼呢，的確沒有這樣要求別人的立場。即使是家人，也總覺得自己沒有這樣的立場。即使一直流血，也沒有誰必須理所當然地立刻趕來呵護我。
　　一切都是自己掙回來的。當然即使付出了，別人也不一定覺得這就要多多重視你吧，其實根本就沒有邏輯性。兩者並不是因果。親情友情愛情，都不是付出了，就有收獲。有時候幸福來得很突然，有時候付出很多了卻一絲改變也沒有。
　　就這樣吧，即使並不是誰的第一位，也沒法子，日子還是照樣過罷。。。

「我最喜歡引用的關於幸福的一段話，是木心寫的：「原來這樣就叫做幸福了」。
你本來以為幸福是多驚天動地的事，之後才發現原來這就是幸福了。這是我目前的心情。
我覺得再怎麼驚天動地的幸福，也只能到這個程度而已。其他事情可能是快樂、滿足、激動，可是就不是幸福。
幸福是有瞭解你的人，陪伴你度過你覺得寂寞的時間，這樣就夠了。」

VERY TRUE...